The [boring] life of a SAHM

I'm so stressed out.

There are 2 things that have really been bothering me that I have no control over.

1. I blogged awhile back saying my parents were getting back together and my mom moved back in with my dad. Well the past few months it's pretty obvious that they aren't working things out. Mom just moved back in because she ran out of options and had no where to live. She told dad she wanted to work things out but she won't spend time with him, she's never home and it's driving daddy crazy. She stays out all night going to bars and hanging out with friends. She's obsessed with my 17 year old brother and wants to be just like him. She actually thinks that when they go out that people think she is his sister. Ha. It's just tearing me up. She's seeing four different men right now and has gotten into drugs. She wants nothing to do with me anymore because I'm not "cool" enough-oh wait, that just means I'm responsible! On mothers day she worked until 5, got off for 2 hours and went to the familiy bbq my aunt threw and then went back to work at 7. I tried to talk to her but she wanted nothing to do with me. I would sit next to her and she would find an excuse to get up. I would talk and she would practically ignore me or start up a convo with someone else. She just wanted to hang out with my teenage cousins. I don't know how much more of this I can handle. When Josh and I were TTC she would always tell me to "hurry up and give her another grandbaby" and then the month we got pregnant she left dad and wanted nothing to do with anyone. I speak to her 1-2 times a month and see her about once a month. She's always working during the day and bar-hopping at night. She never sees Braxton and then wonders why he wants nothing to do with her when she does. She calls my cousin Kelsey her daughter and Kelseys son, her grandson. She sees them often, texts Kelsey everyday.
I'm just so sick of feeling this way and feeling this hatred/dislike for my own mother. I want my mom back. I'm sick of her trying to be a teenager when she should be a grandmother!

Thing #2...We've been trying to get a house for a long time, but the town we live in is very expensive to live in so we hardly ever find a house we can afford. Most houses for sale here are either 1.)Too small and in terrible shape yet cheap or 2.)Nice houses but are anywhere from $100,000+ We can't find a house inbetween. So we started looking at houses in the towns around us. Well we found one we love, 3 bed and 1 bath, very nice house and in our price range and its also very close to my family. So we called the loan co. and they told us our credit score is 1 point short. If we had just 1 more point we would qualify for the loan. He told us to get that 1 point we could open up a credit card and make on-time payments. Well, we tried that and we can't get a credit card because of our credit score. So this is feeling VERY impossible and stressing me out. I'm sick of wasting money on renting and around here it's impossible to find a house for rent that's decently priced. We live in a 2 bed 2 bath house and pay $350 and this is the cheapest option in Perkins. Others go from 500-1000 a month and we just can't afford that right now. I'm sure if I worked we could but I just don't want to put Braxton (and Addie) in daycare. I'm kinda overprotective, I don't trust anyone. I just really want Addie to have her own room so we don't have to share one. I just want us to OWN our own house so we don't have to waste money on renting. It's just so hard...I feel like we are NEVER going to get a house of our own. :(

Ughhh...I think I need a big bowl of icecream.