The [boring] life of a SAHM

I could just scream!

DS has been so whiny, clingy and needy the past week. I'm not sure what his problem is! Maybe he's starting to realize baby sissy is really coming soon? I have no idea.

Every 5 minutes he is tugging on my arm/sleeve saying "Ma, Ma, Ma." , "Ma Loook!" "Ma play!", "Ma eat!', "Ma read" "Ma get up!!"

I play with him, I try to give him attention but he can't have it 24/7. He's recently got interested in reading so I read to him. But half the time he asks me to read he gives me a book, he grabs one and reads to himself and then leaves the room. So I put my book down and if he comes back and sees that I'm not reading it he completely flips out.

I can't sit down for 10 minutes without him pulling on me telling me to get up.

For 20 minutes now he has been asking for something to eat. I go in the kitchen with him and ask what he wants. He opens the refrigerator and looks around. I suggest things in there that he could have. Applesauce, grapes, juice, cheese. He says no to it all. He stands there and looks. I impatiently sit down in a nearby chair. Then I hear wails and screams "Maaa Wait!!! Eat!" So I get up and tell him he needs to close the refrigerator door if he doesn't see anything in there he wants. He points to the cabinets. Again, I suggest things in there he could have for snacktime. He refuses it all. He then wants me to pick him up so he can see what is in there. I tell him mommy can't pick him up because it hurts mommy. He throws himself on the floor and starts throwing a tantrum. I walk out of the room. He stops crying and comes to get me. We go back into the kitchen and he points to the freezer now. I ask him what he wants. He doesn't say anything, just points. I tell him everything in there he could have. He doesn't want any of it. He wants me to pick him up so he can see. I tell him no. The tantrum starts again. I tell him to get up, stop crying and tell me what he wants to eat. He stands up and says "waffle." I tell him we don't have any waffles and the fit continues. Sigh. He rolls on the floor, whining for a good 5-10 minutes. I can tell he's sleepy.

I'm just so frustrated. It's like I can't get 5 minutes to myself anymore. He wants attention constantly and thats just not possible to give him. It's going to be even LESS possible once Addie gets here and thats got me worried.

I feel bad that I have no patience with him today...I almost feel guilty for having baby #2 because that means he's going to have to share me and my attention. I'm worried he's going to feel jealous and start acting up more. Thats just what I need. A newborn and a jealous, cranky toddler.

I think DS & I both need a good long nap. :(