The [boring] life of a SAHM

Okay. I've been worrying about some things and really need to get them off my chest/get advice possibly.

So in a older blog post I mentioned how last December my parents split up. My mom was doing all kinds of crazy things trying to act like a teenager again. They filed for divorce but cancelled the day before court. My mom said she wanted to come back (shes the one that left, obviously) so my dad said okay and she moved back in...didn't work out.

She lived there for several months, sponging off my dad. She didn't help pay any of the bills, didn't clean and for the last couple of months she lived there never came home for weeks at a time. She moved into my old room so thats where she slept when she DID come home. She got a boyfriend and started spending all her time with him. She's been with him for a few months-I heard he just got out of prison. (My mom really knows how to pick 'em)

I've met him (Ryan) a few times. She has brought him over to my house which I am very unhappy about and even made out with him on my couch. In front of Braxton!! NOT COOL! Braxton still thinks "mama" belongs with "pa" It's confusing for him.

Also, mom moved back out of my dads. She is now living with her boyfriend who is 28 years old & still lives with his mother. (btw my mom is nearly 40!) ick!

It's now August and my mom has a boyfriend. my dad has a girlfriend and they are still freaking married!!!! No divorce plans in sight.

Now that you know the short version of the story here are my worries:

1.) I'm afraid my mom is going to try to bring her BF with her to the Hospital when I have Addie. I don't want him there. I don't like him, don't trust him, he gives me the creeps and not to mention I'm going to have tons of family there (including my dad) and it would be way akward. My mom has gotten so crazy/unpredictable even my grandma & dad believe that she is going to try to bring him with her (they are together all the time.) I need to talk to her beforehand about this, I've just been putting it off. I'm not sure what to say or how she will handle it.

2.) My mom & I were just texting. She asked me what days I needed her help after the baby comes. I told her I didn't know but that I would be in the Hospital the 17th through the 19th or 20th so I wouldn't need her then. Apparently she thought she was watching Braxton. Last time she was over I was talking about all I needed to get done, one of the things being-find a baby sitter for brax while I'm in the hospital. She said " I might be able to but I don't know yet. I'm looking for my own place so if I find a place I can watch him.) Well a couple weeks ago I was freaking out about finding a sitter so I asked my MIL. She had already planned on watching him (even though I knew nothing of it) so problem solved. My mom found this out today and got mad because she thought she was watching him. She JUST NOW told me she "may have" found a place of her own. Sorry but thats just not good enough! Not to mention once she gets this place of her own you can guess who will either 1) be over all the time or 2) move in with her. Ryan. I will not allow Braxton to go over there if either of those are a possiblity. Which brings me to my next worry:

3.) I know if my mom does get her own place she will of course want to watch Addie. Which absolutley will NOT happen ever!! I don't trust her or her BF. My mom has been using drugs for several years, ever since she was pregnant with my little brother, just weed though, but since she moved out of my dads she has been getting into much heavier stuff. She will not be watching Braxton or Addie as long as she is seperated from my dad. Even if she did get clean I wouldn't let her watch either of them b/c of Ryan. When I was a toddler I was sexually assulted by one of my moms boyfriend. I do not want the same to happen to my daughter. As of right now the ONLY person allowed to watch her is my grandma. So my worry is: how do I tell my mom shes not allowed to watch adelyn? I'm stressing out so bad because I have all these things swirling around in my head and I don't know what to do. I'm not so good at being firm and direct about things but I know I'm just gonna have to suck it up and talk to her.

Blah.