The [boring] life of a SAHM

I had pretty much the worst dream ever last night.



I dreamed that I went into labor and had Addie. After she was born I kept asking to see her and the nurses wouldn't let me. I kept asking and asking and they finally told me she had died. I still asked to see her. I wanted to see what she looked like, and to hold her. The nurse warned me and said I really shouldn't look. I insisted though so she brought me Addie. In my dream, she looked like a baby of about 20-25 week gestation. She didn't have any fat built up and was just skin and bone but she was beautiful. Especially her nose and lips. I held her and just cried and cried.



The body was released for us to take home (WEIRD!) so we could set up funeral arrangements. I was released from the hospital as well.



I was at home laying down and all of a sudden my belly started jumping around. I thought that was incredibly odd and came to the conclusion that Addie had a twin! I immediatly called my doctor to tell her what I figured out. I explained that something inside of me was kicking! She told me thats completely normal after you give birth (WTH?!) and that Addie did not have a twin.



The rest of the dream is a blur. I remember crying alot in the dream. It was terrifying and heartbreaking.